I hate black things. I want colors! No more black!!! I'm going to bleach and dye my hair in about one week. Hopefully on Dec. 3rd before the concert but.. I might not have time so probably the night after!!

I'm so excited. Plus I have Mad World stuck in my head...

=)

"I'm so damn bored
I'm crawling out of my skin
The devil's got more room to play"

Daaaamn right, son!
I don't even have any fucking homework to turn to!

I never have homework on the days that I'm doing NOTHING and I always have homework when I actually have something to do and CAN'T FINISH IT!

Arrrgh

I purposly "forget" to pay for lunch so I can later use the money for cds and books.

I can't hold on.

I'm not being bitchy anymore so I got my cellphone back!
And Halloween is closer!

And the fight continues..

1. Falling down on my knees in the gym hurts like fucking hell.

2. Cupcakes take forever to decorate.

No concert unless they make a date for Indianapolis, Chicago, or St. Louis on a Sunday.

Damnit.

I eat way too much.

I want to go!!
It's at St. Louis and it's on a Sunday so I don't see why not.
My dad has to take me, of course. BLeh.

Well, as long as I get to see them, then I'm in heaven. :D

Tomorrow's October 1st.
That means Sammy's family's party is 7 days away!

I'm going to make little Frankenstein & ghost cupcakes for it! YAYAYYAY! I love cupcakes! And I love Halloween!

(P.S. I would never say that to my father but he's pushing it!)

So Amanda Wallace invited me to a concert this Friday, and my parents said no.
They gave me a bunch of "We care about you!" bullshit. Whatever.
I just want to live, even it means "gambling" my life away.

Fuck them.

Anyways, Amanda lent me her Flee The Seen cd. And I'm importing it onto iTunes right now..

Blah, blah, blah, today's a shitty day, I just want to get high.

Last night was amazing!
Cortney and I were so fucking wasted!
But we did something bad.. I really regret it.
I am happier without doing this. And I was happy.
Now I feel like I betrayed everybody I love. I hate it.

It was a stupid impulse and it felt incrdible at the time.

Regret is an ugly word..

I eat too much.

I need to like not eat for a couple of days so I don't feel like such a fatass.

Today sucked.
I have cramps, a headache and I'm tired.
Stupid pms.

I felt like I was in a daze all day.


:(

All I want to do is get high, get a big bear hug and go to sleep.
Is that too much to ask for?

I hate school.
If I wasn't for learning, I wouldn't be there.
Infact, I would burn it down.
But I care about getting an education and going to college.
Damn me.

The only reason people talk to me: I burn them cds.

I made this:






I'm so wicked awesome.

P.S. Join it if ya got the goods to! ;]

My Alternative Press magazine finally came into the mail!
EVERYBODY has it already now so I don't feel as great about it
but I do have the subscribers cover! So fuck you everybody!
I've been subscribing for 1 1/2 years and will be for another 2!

Thanks Daddy!

I'm about to go and I don't really want to. The only reason I'm going is because there might be some colorful Halloween decorations there so I want to take pictures. xD

I already ate too. I can't eat anything there. It's all stuff like corn dogs, shizzzzzzcobobs! hah
I'm a vegetarian.. so yeah. I had a veggie burger. It had rice in it! It was yummy! ^_^


Sooooooo I bet I'm going to see Sammy there which should be awesome.
I'm kind of excited but I'm also dreading it.

Egaaad